Did someone tell you that if you follow Jesus your life will be smooth and without difficulties?
Listen to what Jesus says in Matthew 16:24 - 25.
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.